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What a difference a year makes.

Il est difficile de croire combien peut se produire en un an. Charlotte et moi avons commencé à dater encore fin avril de 2007 et sommes maintenant non seulement nous nous sommes mariés, elle est également avec l'enfant. Malheureusement elle est devenue enceinte avant que nous nous soyons mariés qui est quelque chose que je regrette vivement, mais pour quelque raison elle n'a jamais été triste à son sujet. J'ai pris un certain temps au loin d'école et je devrais renvoyer la limite de mich. à Cambridge pour finir le programme gradué.
Nous sommes avons des jumeaux ! Est-ce que ce n'est pas passionnant ? Leurs noms sont Charles Ravindra Rousseau V après moi et son grand-père. Ma belle fille a été à l'origine appelée Charli Donyale (oui nous le savent des bruits comme Charlie Daniels, Charlotte est les Etats-Unis méridionaux, c'est petit rire) mais nous avons décidé de Donyale Benazir Rousseau après la plupart de cousin et de P.M. Benazir Bhutto du favori de Charlotte.

Démuni professionnellement i été jusqu'à beaucoup. Depuis que j'ai quitté Cambridge sur le hiatus, j'avais travaillé aux Virgin Records dans le personnel de niveau bas. J'également avais joué quelques endroits tels que le mon frère-dans le restaurant de la loi tout à fait souvent. Charlotte et moi louent hors d'un appartement à Westminster, pas trop loin de ses parents et nous avions installé la pépinière. Winnie the Pooh, * sourires *.

C'est l'année la plus heureuse de ma vie.
Mes rêves ont vrai venu et je ne pourrais pas demander plus.

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Odd Facts about ME
DO YOU SNORE?:When I'm very tired
LOVER OR A FIGHTER?:both
WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?:not being with Charlotte
AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO BUILDER?:no. K'nex is where it's at.
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF "REALITY TV"?:*yawns*
DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?:...I don't use straws. Straws are for punks.
WERE YOU A CUTE BABY?:I guess.
HOW IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU?:*sighs* awful. terrible.
WHAT COLOR IS YOUR KEYBOARD?:black. oh you mean the computer? it's red, like everything else at Virgin.
DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?:Yes
HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED?:No.
ANY SECRET TALENTS?:Probably, but I don't know. They're secrets.
WHAT'S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT?:South France.
HAVE YOU EATEN SUSHI?:Yes
HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE "DONNIE DARKO"?:Never heard of it.
DO YOU GIVE A DARN ABOUT THE OZONE?:Sure I do.
HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP?:A what? *looks up* that's not fair. That's American. I have no idea.
CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS?:Yes
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON AN AIRPLANE?:Yes.
ARE SPEEDO'S HOT?:not on guys.
WHAT'S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING?:*shrugs*
IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?:I hope so.
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?:Not really
WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO?:Nothing really. But I don't like wool clothes, lest it's lined.
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "I LOVE YOU":This morning when I wrote Charlotte.
IS TUPAC STILL ALIVE?:No. get over it mate.
DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS?:No. Crying is for punks
HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?:Omlettes, I like those.
ARE BLONDES DUMB?:none that I know. 'Cept that one from school.
WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP?:On the top of the dryer cell.
WHAT TIME IS IT?:18:32
DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?:Yes. Charlie, Cheik, Charlotte's brother likes to call me Charzard
IS MCDONALD'S DISGUSTING?:Not really. but I don't want to know what's going on in the back.
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR?:3 weeks ago I think.
DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS?:Showers.
IS SANTA CLAUSE REAL?:Of course!
ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?:No.
WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?:Baked beans, ale, Charlotte.
CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER?:Crunchy.
HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE?:Yes
HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BRUSHED YOUR TEETH TODAY?:Once
IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?:For me at least.
ARE YOU WEARING SOCKS?:*checks* yes
HAVE YOU EVER HITCH HIKED?:Yes
WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES?:They change colour I don't know why. But right now they're green.
WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:December 23rd.
DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE?:It's all right. I'm hoping for better.
WHOSE LIFE IS BETTER?:I don't know. Maybe it's you. You've got all this time. to ask me this random questions.
ARE YOU PSYCHIC?:No.
HAVE YOU READ "CATCHER IN THE RYE"?:Yes.
DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS?:Yes, violin, trumpet, oboe, piano, just to name a few.
CAN YOU SKATEBOARD?:Yes a bit
DO YOU LIKE CAMPING?:It's all right.
DO U SNORT WHEN U LAUGH?:No.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC?:Sure why not.
IS A DOG A MAN'S BEST FRIEND?:Yes
YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE?:No. unless there's abuse
CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK?:Sure can!
DOES YOUR MOM KNOW YOU HAVE A MYSPACE?:I don't have one and if I did. I don't think my mum would care.
WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?:Heinz baked beans and a beef burger for lunch
DO YOU WEAR NAILPOLISH?:No (is a guy)
DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW?:No. I love some one right now.
WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL?:Those damn Mac vs PC ads with the Peep show guys.
DO YOU SHOP AT AMERICAN EAGLE?:No... Because... I don't live in the U.S
FAVORITE BAND AT THE MOMENT?:Kwazik and Three Days Grace
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Did I mention...

I am a university graduate now? I suppose I should.   That is why I am never on! I never have time...  I couldn't start grad school until next Mich. term so I am back in London. I've got a internship with <b>Virgin</b>  and they are kicking my arse. I have been so busy.  But I finally have saved up enough for my own laptop so maybe now  I can update.

What I do in my work is my bossman's work, writing emails, telephone  calls.  I get to go to a lot of free concer and things so that's right fun.  I also get extreme discounts which is great because I am very very poor at the moment even with the job.  

Living with Uncle Leon is  like living with my parents and it  though it seemed like it would work.  This is the man who raised me, so to prove to him I'm a man I must find some other flat to stay at.  Plus the ladies he makes company with are hitting on me and it's bit creepy they're all like 35-40+. Uncle Leon is almost 50 himself.  

<b>Now that Charlotte and I have picked up our correspondence</b> << I would try to explain that  but I will have to do that on another page.   I'm on the goodside of the family. Chad and me  follow the same circle in Lambeth but now he's offered the spare flat above his rest. It's where he and his wife stayed before he bought the bigger flat a block or so away.

Charlotte has been acting very strangely in sort of a 'I want you back, but I am going to make you suffer'.  I think she feels guilty when I am the one who should be guilty.  I want to forget this life sometimes.  We're following into such montone ebony and ivory parts of the graph.  our life seems so binary so basic. So this or that.  I want to take her away from all of this boredom all of this monotony.  I wish we could fly away somewhere to live the rest of lives in anoynymity. Her and me

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Counting down the days.

I'm going to see Charlotte in Decemeber! I'm too excited for my own good. I love her I miss her. And secretly I am happy that she misses me, et that Ayman...whatever his name is could not feel the void.
She's invited me down for catch this a whole week. Now I just got to not spend any money so I can afford the plane ticket. She offered to ask her parents for help, but I am not in the position I once was. I am not a part of that family anymore because I fucked up. Besides my job pays me pretty good, I am working in a music store and doing lessons at a local boys school. I try to send my mum about 100 pounds a month to help out with the family. I'll just go back on the beans diet. Or not, I need to gain weight. Oh well I'll figure it out. I'm gonna get my self togehter. to see my girl. I think she might be on her way to forgiving me, it has been a year after all.   Amazing how it works, she spent the first 10 years pining after me and I'll proably spend the next ten pining for her.

There were flashing lights
When we met

at the typical place you would be

In a flash of time
my mind was set
knew you were the girl there for me


And though you just wanted to leave
imagine how great it could be
the f-u-t-u-r-e (spell the future girl)
sit down hold your horses dont leave (where you goin girl?)

Come and sit with me
Don't be so quick to leave
I really like you girl,

Lets take thoughts and words
Explore the universe

Just dont leave me girl

I really like you girl, girl
Since the moment we met
I really like you girl, oh girl
Now i know, this is it

against the wall,
is where you lean
the most beautiful girl
that i've seen


outta this world,
my god you bling
surprised that you are human being 

I really like you girl, girl
Since the moment we met
I really like you girl, oh girl
Now i know, this is it

Yo, i think i got the one now
Hehe.. never me man, never me
never in a million years...
but i do

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Whirlwind

I do not quite to describe the past few months since most my mates graduate university. To clarify: Charlotte, Lavanya, Rabi, Peter, Betram, Ani, Chak, and Jean all finish their undergraduate studies. Ngozi and Daphne finished their Masters program. Congrats to all of them. Nearly half of them will be here still though, for the fall or doctorate's program, so I will not be nearly as lonely as I thought. Charlotte's still going to be in Cairo though, she wouldn't even come home for holiday. She says I've been acting strange? She nearly got engage to that boy, Tariq. I mean she almost did, but she changed her mind, bless it be! My pal Ravi talked to Tariq though...I think that might have had something to do with it. I don't want Charlotte to be alone the rest of her life like I am obviously going to be. I just think vengeful marriage is wrong. Any rate she's not mad, and realise it was for the best. She even invited me to her new flat (company paid) in Cairo. I'm in Senegal now, visiting family and attending 3 graduations and a wedding of younger cousins. Of course now everyone excusing the whole graduation due to my illness but 'what happen to that brit girl you were go to marry?' *sighs* or those who know how i fucked up. 'Oh why is she acting all haughty like her flower is so pure. You're a man.' Okay let me dispell some myths. I am sooo not from a rich family that's not a myth as you can tell from my 190 cm 55kg body... but no I do not plan on having any extra wives... wrong region folks and wrong socioeconomic bracket. I bet Charlotte would have more than one if she could get away with it. Okay you can tell, can't you. I can honestly say for the first time in my entire life. I am upset with her. Just with the way she's been acting lately. She's toying with me. I hate when she does that... like at that graduation cruise. She was wearing this gold, lame' like halter bathing suit. walking around the deck with just that and pair of short shorts *nosebleed*...course she was with Tariq all day.... and with me all nite. I hate that! She's been acting like some little so and so who just got some high on the hill degree and I'm just some african slave boy.


oh wait she did.
and until last year....that's all I really was.

maybe she finally realised I'm not good enough for her at all.

but damn it all. bob's your uncle i'm going to get my cambridge degree too!

p.s - Whoever said Africans were naturally used to hot weather LIED. this weather fucking ridiculous. it makes all the beer taste german, which isn't bad, just different. I'm used to England, man. Even North Paris never got this bad, I swear... this is so sad I am so westernised.

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La promenade de la nuit

Je déteste pour être taquiné. D'abord moi dois admettre que je l'appréciais mais il y a quelque chose, quelque chose du DEMAIN. Elle tire profit de mon coeur et âme ? elle toying m'un long ? Je juste ne sais pas ce que je ferai quand elle part. Je dois lui prouver qu'elle est la seule... Demain Charlotte et moi vont à un service commémoratif pour les 07.07 attaques. Je me rappelle toujours ce jour. J'étais du côté du nord, allant au rendez-vous et puis à toute la d'un docteur soudain mon monde car le kne de I il serait jamais vraiment tout à fait identique. C'était sorte juste du milieu de lui toute. J'ai su que j'étais puni pour être infidèle à elle. Je crois toujours cela. J'ai besoin de sommeil. Je pense que je ne suis pas aliéné mais peut-être ce des marques je plus ainsi, non ?

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I’ve been down here for about 2 years at Churchill College (Cambridge University) and I really like it. It’s a nice switch from Lambeth.

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Picture Post(yes I am an insomniac)

Man... I need a digital camera.
so who's pictures am I posting? Pictures of my family's festival we had during the last holiday from school while were in the countryside. It was my mother's side of my family, Senegalese, those keeping track. Some of the pictures were take by me... with my Uncle Leon's camera. course you can tell. and the rest are in black and white. taken by Aliko, who recently graduated from univ. with an art degree. go him!

on to the pixRéduire )

...okay that's enough for now. One of these days I'll have to show you some pix of Senegal and Guinea

bonne' nuit

mots ivres

Matière à réflexion. Ils disent que l'homme ne peut pas survivre sur seule la nourriture. Mais cet homme doit prendre la nourriture. Mais ce qui si cet homme ne veut pas la nourriture ?
Si la nourriture se sent impaire dans son corps. Comme si c'étaient une certaine sorte de virus descendant lentement sa gorge. Il y a des périodes où je déteste pour manger. Je ne sais pas pourquoi. Ou peut-être je . Il vient de ma famille la Guinée et au Sénégal qui sont affamés. Où être de 188 centimètres et 55kg est un homme en bonne santé. Ici je ne suis un rien. Mais je ne suis un rien. Et est-ce que pour rien je ne mérite rien ? Rien dans mon corps. Pour lui n'y a rien dans mon âme. Seulement la musique me maintient. Seulement soupir de croche-croche-demi. Musique, il est ce qui me maintient vivant. La nourriture n'est pas nécessaire en Europe pour survivre, il est employée pour communiquer. Je n'ai personne à parler à, tout en mangeant. Dîner par la lueur de chandelle ? Non. Soude de glace, deux pailles ? Non. Un cari épicé bon sortent ? Pas je, avec qui. Le bidon occasionnel de beinz de Heinz pour me garder d'aller au poids redouté d'hôpital. J'ai obtenu ainsi utilisé à être mince, je ne sais pas si je veux désormais être une taille normale. Mes bras sont taille normale, de violon et cricket de jeu. Je suis assez fort, et je personnellement ne pense pas que je suis laid. Mais ces filles BRITANNIQUES disent que je suis trop mince. Oh bien, Charlotte ne s'est pas occupé de moi légèrement. Je parle trop. Le ce soir était tout à fait une nuit et je devine que je suis un peu ivre ainsi vous devez excuser si ceci ne semble aucun raisonnable en ce moment. Le mot de conseillent. Je ne peux pas écrire l'anglais tandis que je suis ivre, ni le parler. C'est simplement normal. Je pense que Charlotte a obtenu un peu sauced aussi bien, non, je le savent pour le fait. Pourquoi autrement elle aurait fait dehors avec moi. Elle a goûté comme l'eau-de-vie fine de chocolat. Oh qui était sexy. POURQUOI EST-ELLE TOYING AVEC MOI ? CE N'EST PAS EXACT. ELLE VA ME LAISSER. MAIS Je NE PEUX PAS RÉSISTER. Son charme, sa grace. Ses yeux bruns ronds, cette peau de chocolat ces jolies courbures en soie des cheveux.

* le soupir *
bonne nuit. Charles

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43 things... it's the latest craze

http://www.43things.com/person/hommecherchant
i.e man on a mission (well man searching, it sounds cooler in english*gasp!*)

So it's the craze for all the graduates... of which I am not one. Luckily most of my mates are staying around for grad school so I don't feel quite as bad. Lavanya and Rabi left for the weekend to tell his folks their not getting married in September since they're going to grad school here. and it is pricey. 30 some odd thousand pounds a TERM. grad school is going to kill me but I still have 2 more terms after this one before I have to worry about that if I even go. a Master's in music sometimes is a waster unless you're intelligent sort of sport. which I'm not very.
Charlotte's leaving for Cairo, EGYPT in a month. I can't believe she's actually going. but I'm not too suprized. I supposed it would happen this way. I deserve it. I know it's not all about me. I have to get over myself. but it still hurts. that the love of my life is going to to fucking Egypt. Damn I hope she doesn't end up turning into one of those creepy christian orthodox muslim sympathisers(no offens to any non extremist muslims or orthodox out there) This is killing. I'm really happy for everybody, I was even really happy when Dr. Saigon told me I could graduate next Lent Term. I just knew I'd be here till...Mich 08.

But at the same time I'm pretty depressed too, I hate being depressed. I'm trying to get out of it because when I'm depressed I don't eat. I just don't feel like it and it sucks because I'm losing weight ...5kg to be exact(fyi:me=tall really really skinny bean pole... with low blod sugar. too bad I'm not short i would've been a great jockey) and when this term ends I have to go back to the doctor and if I lost weight they might try some dumb shit like putting me back in the hospital...i hate hospitals.


...this is by far the longest entry I've written yet. cool

well gotta chip

Charles

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